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I see a body, a head, arms, legs, eyes, mouth, ears...
I know about a brain, lungs, heart, stomach, liver...
I "hear" thoughts, beliefs, concepts, memories, associations...
I watch this body-mind going about in the world, making decisions,
thinking, talking, feeling pain, feeling pleasure...
I witness this body-mind having thoughts about an "I" that
does this, an "I" that does that...
It's all perfect as it is. Nothing needs to change.
But it's not what I am.
What I am sees the body, the mind, the decisions, the suffering
and the bliss.
What I am knows the moving about, knows the attempts to find
answers, to know the truth, to find Enlightenment.
But what I am can never have any of this, can never find any
of this, and never needs to anyway.
What I am doesn't have the capability of searching, of moving,
of thinking. What I am doesn't have the capability to care or
not care. What I am doesn't even know what any of it is called,
what the meaning of any of it is...
What I am is the source of all of it - I see the coming and going
of the body, of the mind, of consciousness itself.
I see beliefs pass through like clouds, I see suffering turn
into joy then turn back to suffering again.
I see the "I"-thought arise to greet the sense of separation
- I see it pass.
What I am is never touched, like a mirror, reflecting all unconditionally,
never grasping, never holding, not because it doesn't want to
grasp or hold, but because it doesn't have the capacity to hold
anything.
What I am has no capacity to want or not want, need or not need,
fear or not fear. What I am was never born and cannot die - for
it is only the passing body-mind which was born and will die.
And what I am is what YOU ARE - the already-present being-awareness
which is behind all of what arises, including the world, the
body-mind, even this consciousness.
What YOU ARE is presently seeing/knowing without doing anything,
effortlessly. What YOU ARE is the open space, the background
on which this entire play, this dream, is happening.
This isn't something "YOU" have to attain - it IS WHAT
YOU ARE. The identification with, the belief in, the body-mind
AS what you are is the only apparent block to seeing what you
ALREADY are. No amount of meditation or other spiritual paths
can help "you" attain it, because that body-mind who
would meditate is just another happening in what you are. The
meditation is presently known, that's ALREADY the case.
The only thing that can be done, and this is ALREADY happening,
is to rest in this silent, spacious seeing/knowing awareness,
to watch the body-mind going about it's business, moving about
in various ways, searching, suffering, having pleasure and pain.
There is nothing that needs to be done to the body-mind, no experience
that needs to happen, no attainment that needs to happen.
But we seek for an answer within the dream, within that which
is seen/known - however the concept of an "I" that
sees this body-mind is also an illusion, still false separation.
Saying "I" know the body-mind and it isn't what I am
is STILL separation, still duality.
So what is the answer? Who is seeing/knowing? Will you ever be
satisfied with the answer "nobody is seeing/knowing"?
Is it possible that what you really are is not a thing, nobody,
meaningless, non-existent (or to put it another way, the only
thing that exists)?
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